Future

So eh
Hey everyone
sorry its been like forever.
not much has been happening.
Just conintuning on with the mediciation
which i feel like it hasnt been making me ...horribly actually physically sick anymore, but its been messing with my actual organs /joints and everything now, im actually in pain alot of the days.
Since im always like in pain ive become really irritable and really bitchy, and i dont really want to deal with anyone much anymore. I wouldnt say im depressed, or anything but more.. bipolar.
haha i feel bad for saying that but i guess maybe thats what it is?
Im so stressed with my future too. Im really upset to know that my mom wants me to stay home one more year and just go to the community college for 1 year of generals because it might be to hard for me to go away if im still on treatment, which im on until october 28th but the side effects can last up to 6 months afterwards. thats how long it takes everything to flush my system .
So im not really happy about that i really wanted to the 4 year dorm expierence, but maybe this is how im supposed to do it, even if its not what i want. In all honesty sometimes i dont know what i want. I know i want to go into nursing, oncology would be nice. But its like im always stuck in a rut or something is always just blocking me toget there.
idk
ugh
anyways i have a doctors appointment on thursday.
This week is spring breka and i work today from 6-10:30
tomarrow and thursday from 3-10:30
friday from 3-:6:30
and saturday from 2-7

so i will be making so much money, which i need to pay back my mom for car insurance. i wish that was going into my wallet but w.e
alright ill update on thursday if i have time to tell how the doctors goes