sick

yeah im sick go figure.
im so tired.
My cheeks are flushed red.
and i can barley open my eyes right now.

i really dont feel good
and i want it to just end....everything i want everything to end.

idk. today was a bad day... horrible day actually.

Tired

Ughhh Home from a longgggg dayyyy
i spent almost 8 hours with the cello today
it was stressful
Im horribly tired still
like. ive never been so tired in my life and it says something when like everyone asks "did you get enough sleep?"
haha
ughhhh i really feel like curling up in a little ball and sleeping for days.
like days would do me good.
Lent starts tomarrow and i decided to give up pop.
alright. well.
my stomach really hurts right now.
and i can barley keep my eyes open oh. which btw, i was reading music today and i started getting blurred vision... ill have to let the doctor know that asaps.
lol
ughhhh

Eh updates

So i have been dreadfully tired this past week
Like.. okay
saturday i slept for 14 hours.. and i still felt horribly tired,
Sunday i had my spanish concert for MVO and i thought i was going to pass out because i was so tired. I feel like im having problems regulating my sugars. haha. Like i get sooooo tired. and then ill drink lemonade and then i will feel a little better or something.
Idk.
But w.e Im still horribly tired, and my stomach is stil upset..
really.. it hasnt stopped being...upset since... christmas eve..
like its been a non stop stomach ache lol.
ugh.
alright
well.
i should be getting results back from last wednesdays tests pretty soon here....mk. im gonna probably head back to bed now.

Updates

Alright
So
I had a doctors appt. today at the eagan location
i went there feeling reeeeeaaaly faint, and the lady noticed it, she said i was dehydrated
so w.e
so then got my blood taken etc.
took her 3 pokes again :p
oh well
i still love my nurse
Anyways,
Ill find out those results on fridayyy
and weve been getting calls off the end today about stuff going on with my blood blah blah
the pills im on are a "potential cancer -causing agent"
um
my white blood cell count like i said before.. is crappy
my red blood cells are still acting up whih is causing me to be loopy, and not all there 99.9% of the time
ummm
i love my life?

alright well im going to bed before i pass out . im tired

night

still sick

yeah. and i feel like complete crap
like everything sorta went wrong this weekend haha
and im exahusted.
and...i caught a cold.. which isnt good considering i have an extremly low white blood cell count so its REALLY getting to me.
i gotta go though .. school.. well.. atleast for a couple hours if i can make it that long


im so tired.
im sick too.
yuck

Sickk

Yeah
This is bad.
haha
I feel horrible today.
Earlier was better than it is now, i took a little nap. But it seemed to make it worse, because when i woke up it was like blahhhhhhhhh
I have a horrible headache, body aches, fever, i feel like im going to throw up
umm
yeah
but im going out to eat with my mom because she thinks i should eat something....
but idk what im going to eat...
and i look like death.
im pale. and i have huge bags under my eyes, my hair is like a mess, and im too tired to get dressed....
yuck
i hope i feel better tomarrow. :/

Blood Tests... YAY!

So
alright
gofa is offially over :'(
I have my performance on youtube!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-1FVZVcf4AE&feature=channel
theres one of our performances.
sorry for the out of tunes, there cellos.. what can you expect?
ALRIGHT to get down to business.
The agenda = my blood tests again

WBC=1.8 normal=4.0-9.1
RDW=21.6 normal =12.3-14.5
RBC= 3.43 normal=3.91-5.26
Platelets= 123 (WOO THEY WENT UP!!..but still low)- normal=194-349
Neutrophils= .8 ..normal= 1.5-5.6
Lymphs (WOAH THEY ARE LOW??!?! NORMALLY THEY ARE HIGH!)- .8 normal =1.1-3.1
Hemoglobin= 10.4 normal 11.7-15.0
Hematocrit= 30.3 normal =34.8-43.5


Alright so there ya go.
OH AND
I DEVELOPED
"Slight Poikilocytosis" and "Moderate Anisocytosis"
Which both basically mean that my red blood cells are shapped funny and are not doing what they are supposed to. Apparently its common in cattle?
haha...
This week has been better than last... but still not good. I was having problems breathing yesterday right before school ended and i was trying to call my mom to tell her to call my doctor but she wouldnt ansewr lol
I did my injections today, around... 3? i made my cousin watch, she was truely disgusted, then amazed how i could actually stick my self with a needle.
But i can feel the side effects as i type. not looking forward to tomarrow.. i can feel its oging to be a brutal week ahead.
Oh dear
Well i hope everyone has a good presidents day if i dont update sooner!
Love you all!

GOFA weeeek

Yup stands for, Give once for all.
Its amazing
i love gofa week!
PRETTY much i have no class this week. haha
its like.. spring break for me?
LOVE.it.
ha
no updates on my illness.
Still feel like crap, but not as bad as last week. THANK. god.
last week was bad.
Im dizzy. Alot.
like a lot a lot.
And ill have a fever. but thats about it.
so thats good.
Ive been trying to get a hold of my doctor now, for two days, and his assistant is out of town or something and i need to schedule another appointment soon because of the fact i still feel like crap, and they said to call if i did, and they need to approve of my medications with the specialty pharamacy and stuff, and i dont know if im going in on friday- (this friday) -yet for blood tests.idk!
yay!
anyways
if i do..ill have to make it early in the morning because...if i go at 1pm my normal time id miss the buy outs for gofa, which im hoping to get into best of the talent show!! woop woop.
But w.e
ill hopefully schedule it early early, so i get to miss my ... 1st hour lol. then ill have the rest the day off :D
alrighty well ill update later.

Blood Tests

Ah so theres FINALLY an explanation that has been written down why i feel like crap!
ANEMIA.
"Childs results show no significant change. Anemia is slightly worse. Call us if you have been feeling more tired"


AH yeah im going to be calling on monday to bitch and moan how horrible this past week has been . really.
it sucked.
anyways heres an update on the blood tests or w.e

WBC = 2.3 normal = 4.0-9.1
RDW= 23.0 nomal = 12.3-14.5
RBC= 3.56 normal = 3.91-5.26
Platelets= 111 normal = 194-349
Nuetrophils= .9 normal= 1.5-5.6
Monocytes= 11 normal = 3-10
Lymphs= 48 normal =20-47
Hemoglobin= 10.6 normal =11.7-15.0
Hematocrit = 31.2 normal =34.8-43.5


Those were from last week or w.e
This weeks that i had taken today will probably be worse due to i feel worse lol
GREATT.
and i got stuck 3 times again before she got it :(
it hurt
lol
Ill update later.

eh update i guess

Eh so its tuesday.im starting to feel a TINY bit better.
My ribs are still killin me.
And im extremly tired
I did not sleep at all lastnight i took that 4 hour nap after school and that was it.
So im dead beat tired
on my way to school soon :'(
Not excited.
I really am actually starting to worry if these symptoms im expierencing are normal? idk they just keep gettin worse and worse
but today ..maybe because im so sleep deprived im not focusing on the symptoms from my meds idk.

anyways w.e
i have orchestra tonight... try outs for the crucible tomarrow after school, and a newspaper meeting after school, then i also have the taco house tomarrow night for GOFA.
im really excited!
But i hope i feel better...
tomarrow will be a good day.. as of ..events" wise happening. today just sorta sucksssss
I really dont want to go to orchestra but the pieces we were handed out are VERY hard, we have straight 16th notes for like 4 pages straight of many different finger patterns its CRAZY. and its extremley fast, but once i get it im sure it will be really fun
This upcoming concert .. its our spanish concert for MVO, and its normally my favorite, i love that style of music for orchestra, that or i love russian music too...and no not because im russian.
Anyways.. tonights practice will be exahusting and hard. booo :'(

Painful

So my side effects have not worn off yet. and im suprised it almost seems as if there getting worse.
all i want to do is sleep, i get so exhausted, and it really sucks because i slipped on the ice last night and so im actually sorta worried i might have damaged one or two of my ribs because theres realy bad bruising and it reallllllllllly hurts still, and i just woke up from a... 4 hour nap.
but im going back to sleep after i type this.
But anyways, i think this might be the worst ive ever been. Im actually pretty positive i might miss school tomarrow if i dont start feeling better.
i feel like complete crappy
it hurts to breathe again
i feel like im going to throw up
im hungry but my taste buds make my food taste absolutly nasty
i have a raging headache
i havea fever
my body is in complete agony.
okay.
im going back to bed.